Sunday, May 7, 2017

Day 146: Operation HOPE...A Year Ago Today

This was me a year ago...May 7, 2016

I was blown away when this picture showed up on my Facebook page as a memory from May 6, 2016!  Exactly one year ago today.  A year ago I was dragging myself through my days.  Living in excruciating pain.  Taking all sorts of medications for my "health" and for my pain.  I was always tired.  Living in a fog.  I was real good at masking all these symptoms behind my pulled back shoulders and broad smile.  This journey "Operation HOPE...Hold On Pain Ends" wasn't on my radar at all.  I had no idea a year ago that I would be on a lifestyle journey to radically change my life.  Not. One. Clue.

This was me a week ago...April 29, 2017

When I saw the picture from last year, I immediately remembered that I had taken a picture last week.  I put these pictures side by side in a Word document, and just couldn't believe how far I've come in 146 days!  I told my son tonight that I like to do that {put pictures side by side} so I can see the transformation.  A lot of times, believe it or not, I still see myself as I was a year ago.  But, I know I'm not who I was a year go.  I've changed in so many ways...and not just physically.

I'm no longer dragging myself from day to day.  I feel more alive and awake now.  I'm sleeping much better than I have in years, and wake up {most of the time} feeling refreshed.

I hardly ever experience brain fog and headaches any more.  There are still some days that I experience them, but I literally used live in a fog 24/7 & dealt with headaches for most days in a month's time.  It's really nice to be able to think clearly and not have to deal with horrible headaches.

My pain level is different than it was a year ago.  Although I still experience pain {still most days 24/7}, it's not to the same intensity that it was.  I know that I'm moving around and functioning better despite the pain.

I am off ALL medications for my "health" and pain!!  This one is HUGE to me!

I am not healed yet...but I'm healing...day by day.  The struggle is still real and raw, but every day I see the fruit of my labor and the light at the end of this long tunnel is getting brighter and brighter with every passing day.


H.O.P.E. = Hold On Pain Ends

Saturday, April 29, 2017

Beach Therapy: Seaside Park {4-29-17}


Impromptu dinner date on the beach in Seaside Park.

Gorgeous night with my most favorite people on the planet!

Best. Beach. Therapy. Day. Ever!!

My cup runneth over!!

Beach Therapy: Belmar {4-27-17}


On Thursday, Sarah and I went to Belmar Beach.  The weather inland was gorgeous...mild and sunny.  However, when we got to the beach we quickly realized that it was totally the opposite...foggy and cold.  We actually had to buy a cover-up for Sarah at a little shop across from the beach because she was wearing a sleeveless shirt!!  {We got it on clearance for $5!  Thank goodness because the sweatshirts were $35.00!!}  Sometimes the beach has it's own weather.  But, we're Jersey Girls...nothing a little cover up can't fix.

 

Sarah brought her kite along.  There was a constant breeze that kept her kite up in the sky the entire time we were there.  As I walked along the shoreline, she walked a little further up flying her kite.  She laughed, ran and smiled the whole time.  She was so happy, and that made me happy.

        


We found lots of treasures on this trip.  Sarah is drawn to "Mermaid Purses".  She must have found six or seven of them.  Since they kinda creep me out, I took a picture of her holding one and left them all on the beach where they belong.  We also found a toy car.  It was so smooth from being tossed around in the ocean and sand.  Sarah "needed" to take it home with her!  We also found A LOT of shells, sea glass and a very interesting rock with a hole in it.

Even though the weather wasn't perfect, the trip was.  I was in my favorite place on earth with my favorite girl on earth!  Can't get much better than that!


Saturday, April 22, 2017

Beach Therapy: Long Branch {4-18-17}

  


Oh what a gorgeous and absolutely perfect beach day this visit was.

I decided to go to Long Branch beach right after my appointment with Dr. C.  The beach is literally a couple of blocks from the wellness center, and I have never been on the beach in Long Branch.  I also didn't have a lot of time to be able to travel to Ocean Grove.  I'm so glad that I decided to visit this beach...so glad!

The sky was so blue.

The sun was shining so brightly.

The beach was empty, except for a few people strolling the shoreline or sitting in their chairs.

There's a little boardwalk there so there were people walking and riding their bikes.

The tide was a little high, so collecting seaside treasures was a little difficult.  I only found one small piece of sea glass but found lots of delicate and beautiful shells.

I enjoyed the feel of the sand between my toes, the cool ocean on my feet and the warm sun on my face.

It really amazes me how different the beaches on the Jersey Shore are.  Even though they share the same coastline, their appearances and feel are all slightly different.  Some have more beach than ocean.  Some have more ocean than beach.  The texture and color of the sand seems to vary from beach to beach.  The seashore treasures are different on each beach.  Even though each beach is different and unique to itself, they all share three special things in common to me...every single one takes my breath away, is my haven and my home!

One of the first things I saw when
I approached the beach.
So cool!!
"Hello Beautiful!"
  

I sat here for quite a while.  It was amazing to me what
the tide had created.  It was far enough from the ocean that
I didn't get wet, but close enough to enjoy every bit of it!


I scribbled this in the sand.
I am truly home when I'm at the beach!
This little lady came by to say
hello as I sat.  I have never
seen a ladybug on the beach!

Good-Bye Long Branch.  Parting is such sweet sorrow!



Day 132: Operation HOPE...Updates, Updates and More Updates

I'm on Day 132 today.  I so wanted to get this update out earlier this week, but this week has just flown right by.  On top of being busy, I've been battling what I though was allergies, but turns out that I have a full blown out cold!  What started out on Wednesday as a sore throat, quickly turned into a cough, stuffy nose with mild headaches.

Dr. C thinks this is all viral (and also because I've run myself down).  He told me to take a massive dose of Vitamin C, licorice root tea and oregano oil {which is like drinking gasoline...good times!}.  After telling him today that I'm really not feeling better, and after admitting that I pushed myself too hard yesterday, he told me "you have to recover lady...you had a virus!"

So, doctor's orders, I'm resting today (and probably tomorrow).  I'm taking this time to catch up on computer work that has gone to the back burner and catching up on my blog.  So, here's what's been going on since my last post 12 days go.

NUTRITION: I saw Dr. C yesterday, Tuesday 4/18/17.  I'm down a total of 31 pounds...still burning fat and gaining muscle!  That's all good news.  Dr. C will possibly be making some modifications to my nutrition plan in the next month or so, but that's not set in stone.  He's made some modifications to my supplements (which I'll update below).  He wants to see how I do with those changes and with de-stressing before he makes these changes.

DE-STRESSING:  My goodness.  This part is so hard!  There just doesn't seem to be enough time in the day to do all I need to do for everyone else, and then take time for me.  I started a journal to jot down what triggers my stress, what I think I can do to change that, things that I would like to do and places I would like to go.  I shared some of these ideas with Dr. C and he said that I'm doing the process.  Everything starts with a thought and a plan...and that's exactly where I'm at right now.  He said that now I need to start making plans to do the things that I said, write them on the calendar and execute them little by little.  I did make it to the beach again on 4/18/17, and will blog about that later.  Dr. C said that since the beach is so therapeutic to me, that I need to try and get there at least two times a week.  It's been hard because the weather has been so cold and rainy here...but rest assured just as soon as the weather changes I'll be there!

5-HTP & TRYPTOPHAN:  Dr. C has switched me off of the 5-HTP onto Tryptophan.  I quickly maxed out on the 5-HTP, and about a week and a half ago I started having some adverse reactions to it.  I was very agitated and aggravated.  I couldn't settle down no matter how hard I tried.  My mind was constantly jumping from one thing to another.  I was exhausted, and my pain level was much higher than it had been.  I wasn't myself, and really didn't like how I was feeling.

Dr. C told me yesterday that he recently read an article that 7% of people who take 5-HTP have these type of adverse reactions to it.  Of course, I would be in that 7%!  I've heard many times in this 4-1/2+ year journey that I'm "not like other patients", that whatever I was going through "wasn't normal",  I even heard the phrase many times "in some patients" this or that happens.  So, why shouldn't I be in this elite 7% group?  {sarcasm definitely intended}

I've been taking Tryptophan since Tuesday night, and see a night and day difference!  I've been sleeping much better than I have in a few weeks.  I've had some dream recall (which is huge).  I'm more relaxed, not agitated, aggravated or jittery.  It will take some time, again, to level this out and find the right dose for me.  I will continue to work closely with Dr. C (contacting him daily to let him know how I'm feeling).  He told me yesterday that when I came to him in December, he knew that I had many issues that needed to be resolved, but as we chip away at this he's realizing there's more to what's been going on in my body than he truly knew.  He reiterated that this will all take time, but he's confident that I will get better.

CHIROPRACTIC:  I saw Dr. P on Monday, 4/17/17.  He's been treating my lower back with heat, electrical stimulation, light massage and stretching.  I see a remarkable difference in my back since starting these treatments.  I was even able to wear heals on Easter Sunday with no pain!  My back is still healing, this I know.  I still get fatigued and have discomfort if I've done too much in one day.  However, I do not have that excruciating pain and pressure that I've experienced for the last 4-1/2+ years.  I will start seeing Dr. P only once a week instead of twice a week.

ACUPUNCTURE:  I'm not loving acupuncture.  Not at all.  I've had three treatments.  The first two were okay, but this last one on Monday, 4/17/17 was terrible.  I couldn't relax.  I felt most of the needles the entire time.  Some were hurting.  And, for about two hours after I had burning and tingling in my right leg, and tingling in my arms where the needles were.  I talked to Dr. C on Tuesday about stopping the acupuncture and replacing it with massage.  The masseur that does the light massage on my lower back is amazing, and, at this point, I really feel like massage would benefit me more.  Dr. C was totally fine with that, but he wanted me to run it by Dr. P when I saw him.  I talked to Dr. P and he was also fine with me switching from acupuncture to massage therapy.  Unfortunately, I cannot start massages until the end of May because of the masseur's and my schedules. In the meantime, will stick with the once a week treatments with Dr. P until the massages kick in, and then we'll decide if I can stop treatment with Dr. P and only do the massage therapy.

So, that's it!  Things are definitely moving in the right direction.  As hard as this has been, and sometimes still continues to be, I'm so grateful that I am on this path to wellness.

Day 126: Operation HOPE...In My Easter Best


This picture was taken by my beautiful daughter on Easter Sunday 2017.

I was on Day 126 on my wellness journey.  

I found this dress and shawl at a local consignment shop, and fell in love with them the moment I saw them.  I had reservations as I took them to the dressing room.  The dress looked way too small for me, but "something" said "try it on anyway".  I'm so glad I did because I fell even more in love when I put them on and they fit me like a glove!  The outfit was completed when I found those adorable, strappy shoes at Marshall's.  Easter couldn't come quick enough!

It has been years since...
I had a new Easter outfit.
I wore panty hose.
I wore heals.

On this day I felt...
So pretty.
So confident.
So proud of myself.
So thankful to the Lord...for all He has done for me and in me!

Thursday, April 13, 2017

Beach Therapy: Seaside Park {4-11-17}


This beach trip found me at North Avenue in Seaside Park, NJ.  I had company on this trip.  My kiddos tagged along, and my best friend and her kiddos met us there.  

It was an awesome spring beach day.  It was windy and there was a chill in the air, but that didn't stop us from being there!  After all, we're Jersey Girls...nothing will stop us from being on the beach.  All we needed were our sweatshirts, and we were good to go!

This trip was filled with so many things that I love {not in any particular order}...
  • That intoxicating sea air
  • Bright sunshine
  • Gorgeous blue sky
  • My favorite green beach chair
  • Sand between my toes
  • My kiddos
  • My longest, bestest friend and her kiddos
  • Walks and talks along the shoreline
  • Sweet seashore treasures found!  {A LOT of sea glass!!!}
  • Kids playing in the sand
  • Sandbars {so many}
  • Seagulls

What a tremendous blessing it is to live so close to the shore.  And, what a tremendous blessing it is to have a best friend who loves the beach just as much as I do, and is more than happy to meet me there!!

My cup runneth over!!

My view for the afternoon!!


Where my toes belong!!


Our Kiddos...boy to I love this crew!!
AH-MAZ-ING SANDBAR!!!

2 BFFs with their 2 BFF daughters on the sandbar!
Absolute Perfection!!
{I. Love. This. Picture!!}