Day 109: Operation HOPE...Hopeful

hope·ful

ˈhōpfəl/

adjective

1. 1.

   feeling or inspiring optimism about a future event.

   
   

   
   

noun

1. 1.

   a person likely or hoping to succeed.

Both of these definitions adequately express exactly how I'm feeling today!

Hopeful - adjective:  I had my second visit with Dr. P yesterday.  I had the same treatment I had Monday.  And, one distinct thing I noticed is that I walked into that office hobbling a bit, and walked out not!  I'm also noticing today that I'm moving around without wincing in pain half as much as I have in the last 4-5 years!!  That is truly amazing to me.

Hopeful - adjective:  I had another text dialog with Dr. C today.  Here's how that went:

Me:  "I took 300mg of 5-HTP with 1 P5P (the B6 supplement) before bed.  Status quo.  Slept well...no dream recall.  I feel rested and alert.  No headache and pain is tolerable.  Lower back feeling somewhat better from just 2 treatments with Dr. P.  What are your thoughts about me staying on 5-HTP?

Dr. C:  "Lisa, I think we need to ride this wave.  I am so happy to hear of this.  You are such a class act and deserve the life coming to you in the next six months."

Me:  "Thank you for that.  I appreciate your kind words more than you know.  So, do you want me to keep at the 300mg & still touch base with you daily?"

Dr. C:  "Absolutely.  We will switch to tryptophan at some point."

Me:  "Ok.  Sounds good.  Riding out this wave until you tell me otherwise."

Hopeful - noun:  I feel like a caterpillar that is anticipating it's transformation; it's anxious anticipation as it wiggles and struggles to free itself from its chrysalis, finally breaking free as a gorgeous butterfly.

It's as if my old, broken body is getting ready to just peel away so my new, healed body can walk forth triumphant!

As I said in previous blog entries, I'm healing but I'm not healed yet.  And, while that is still my reality, I have never felt more hopeful that I will reach the end of this journey and finally be pain-free!  Success will be mine someday soon!!  I cannot wait!

H.O.P.E. = Hold On Pain Ends