Day 183: Operation HOPE...Keep Fighting

The above statement was absolutely written for me.  This is exactly how I feel at this point.  This valley that I've been in has got to be one of the hardest that I've had to go through in a long while.  I've been battling my own body for quite some time now, but these last few weeks have been unreal.

I am tired.
I am fed up.
I feel like I'm close to breaking.
I feel weak.

Dr. C has a definitive hypothesis about what's going on with me.  I'm not comfortable right now sharing what that is until there's more definitive information.  I can say this, though, he is tirelessly working on getting to the bottom of all this.  He told me yesterday that he's presenting my case to seven other doctors on Thursday.  I'm praying that they can come up something to reverse all this pain I've been in for many, many years.  Dr. C has had me on a three day "food challenge".  Saturday and Sunday I had major reactions...MAJOR.  Today is the last day of the challenge.

Keep fighting...that's the only choice I have.

Keep fighting...I didn't come this far to quit.

Keep fighting...because I have faith in Dr. C and this process

Keep fighting...because I have HOPE that one day this pain will be a distant memory.

"Do you not know? Have you not heard? The Lord is the everlasting God,

The Creator of the ends of the earth. He will not grow tired or weary,

And His understaning no one can fathom. He gives strength to the weary

And increases the power of the weak.

Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall;

But those who HOPE in the Lord will renew their strength.

They will soar on wings like eagles,

They will run and not grow weary,

They will walk and not be faint."

Isaiah 40:28-31 (NIV)

H.O.P.E.= Hold On Pain Ends