Day 150: Operation HOPE...Always Adjusting

One thing I'm learning as I continue day by day on this journey is how to be flexible and go with the flow.  Those of you who really know me know that this goes totally against my grain.  To a fault, I'm a planner and an organizer.  I'm the type of person who always needs to know what's going on...what will or could happen.  It's how I'm wired.  It's who I am.  God definitely has a sense of humor, and has placed me in a position that I need to learn how work against my grain.  Good times!  {Sarcasm intended!}

A week ago I had a plan.  The plan was that I was going to start this detox.  I jumped in with two feet and the plan was to see it through no matter what.  That plan was in place until this morning.  I woke with unbelievable full body pain, a horrible headache and brain fog.

I shared my symptoms and my commitments for today {the fact that I wouldn't be able to rest like I have the last few days} with Dr. C and he said, "Ok.  Do not do detox shakes on busy days.  You are dumping lots of toxins."

I responded, "Unfortunately, most of my days are busy days.  Maybe I should try every other day to see if that helps."

He then said, "Yes, every second day now."

BOOM!  Just like that the plan has changed!  I. A. BLINK. OF. AN. EYE.

A half a year or so ago, I would get anxious, aggravated and frustrated at a sudden change in a plan I thought was a good one.  But, instead, today I'm grateful...!!

Grateful that I have a doctor who isn't afraid to change the course of treatment to fit my needs based on what is happening right now.  Grateful for a doctor that always, always has my best interest in mind.  Grateful for a doctor who will not quit because things get hard or when they don't make sense.  Grateful that I have a doctor who doesn't push me to the back burner and/or ignore me when I reach out to him.  Grateful for a doctor who gets me and treats me as me...not as a number or a group of people with similar issues...but rather an individual person with unique issues and symptoms that are mine and mine alone.

God has blessed me beyond what I could have ever thought or imagined by leading me to this amazing office, and putting me on this journey.  This journey is teaching me so much.  I'm learning to adjust.  Learning to be flexible.  Learning to go with the flow.  Learning to surrender to the process.

This journey is still very hard and messy.  I'm still healing.  I'm still in pain.  Healing hurts.  Despite that, though, I see the good.  I'm know I'm on the right path, and I have HOPE that I will see a day where I am fully healed!!

H.O.P.E. = Hold On Pain Ends