Sweet 60!!
Today is Day 60...two full months on this journey toward a pain-free life!! I can't believe it! At times it seems like it was forever ago that I started, and at other times it feels like I just started yesterday. Crazy!
When I started this journey back in December, the thought of making it to Day 60 never crossed my mind. Back then, the thoughts that filled my mind were ones of uncertainty, panic and anxiety. I learned quickly that if I wanted to be successful at this, I would need to change that type of thinking.
Here's what I've been learning over the last 60 days:
*I need to focus on just the day at hand. And, honestly, most times on just the moment at hand.
*That this is a race...not a sprint. A step-by-step, moment-by-moment journey toward my goal...a pain-free life!
*I need to take a more macro, up close focus on this journey, rather than a panoramic view. I don't need to see the entire picture to know #1 that God is in this, and #2 that I'm on the right track. What I need to do is trust God because He sees the entire picture, and know that it's really okay {and good} that I don't.
*I need to preach good, encouraging, truthful things to myself daily. Most days that's happening from sun up to sun down. Do you realize how much we do {or don't do} is affected by how we talk to ourselves? I had an "Ah-Ha" moment when I realized that truth. No. Stinkin'. Thinkin'!
*I need to better balance my time between my family, home schooling, obligations and my new lifestyle of cooking 3 meals a day, every day. This one is hard for me. I still feel like there just is not enough time in the day to do everything.
*That I'm not healed yet {no matter how much I want to be}. Healing is a process...it takes time. My body is going through a major detox...which hurts. And, my body has many medical issues such as Rheumatoid arthritis, Fibromyalgia and a chronic seroma in my back...which hurt.
*That God's timing is not my timing.
These things that I'm learning are all great, awesome things. But, they aren't ingrained in me naturally. What is ingrained in me is to always look ahead...plan...know what's going on around the next corner. What's ingrained in me is to over analyze...over think...over worry. What's ingrained in me is to second guess myself and talk myself out of things. What I've, basically, had to do is work against what's naturally ingrained in me, and let God begin to refine and restore me.
"Let go and let God"
So much is changing. Change is good. It's not been easy, but I can tell you, I'm beginning to see the fruit of my labor and it's exciting...it's good!
Thank you God for the last 60 days! You are so good to me! I'm truly excited to see what the next 60 days bring!!
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